I think I Zigged When I was Looking to Zag...

So, I was finally able to go to the doctors, and thank heavens for Dr. Anderson the ENT who actually made a decision and just said "well, we don't know why it happened so no need to run any more tests - let us know if it happens again." Done! So that was Wednesday afternoon (I almost cried when the Neurologist didn't make up her mind and sent me to see him.) So I asked both the ENT and Neuro's receptionists to send over their paperwork to WorkMed so it could be evaluated - they didn't do it until end of business day, so lame, so no eval Wednesday. No doctor at WorkMed would evaluate it on Thursday (which to me is silly that they don't always have a DOT doc there.) So finally on Friday at noon after not hearing from WorkMed, I went down and sat in their waiting room until they saw me. The verdict.....
I'm going back to work. I actually went back to work last Saturday. So no trip to Kansas for me to see my family. *BIG SIGH* this really upset me. I am just crazy that all my time was spent up and it wasn't even put to good use. So I was on report both Saturday and Monday, yesterday. Today I have a great 9+ hour straight on the 39. Hope I can survive it. We'll see. 
Also now because I am staying in Utah I need to find a new place to live. So on Saturday Joe said I could stay at his place so avoid paying rent on the current apartment. That has turned out to be great. I love their bed, SO soft! I have also had to start looking at apartments again and so far I have seen four and I actually like two. So now I just need to pick one of those two. I'm thinking the first one is the right one, but I'm waiting... I don't want to rush into things. 
Well, I gotta get gettin' on... Life as usual? 

Life in Limbo

So keeping busy has been a challenge for me; all this time off work and nothing to do but sit around watching Netflix. I am still in limbo and I'm beginning to hate the place. 

I saw the neurologist on Tuesday. She is a very nice doctor who is originally from Kansas City - which gave us something to talk about other than my messed up head. She, however wanted me to go and see a specialist, so I did. I went and saw a balance specialist to make ensure that all of my vestibular parts are in working order. Much to her surprise/chagrin,(also a very nice lady doctor), she could not recreate my symptoms and was therefore unsure of what I had and what had caused it. So she'll send a report back to the neurologist. Unfortunately that was last Wednesday and I have had to wait until this Wednesday (two days from now) to see the neurologist again - goodbye paid vacation time. 

So I've waited. I have thoroughly cleaned the apartment in which I'm still residing by the good graces of my landlord - who I do not think is really happy with me staying here solo because I do not want to pay the whole $800 rent, just the normal $400 split - although I get where he is coming from. 

I also went today and paid the June rent ($300) on the apartment that I was going to move into - signed the lease on - but am now unsure/unable to do so because of this sidebar. I have hopefully found a replacement for myself on the lease though - again, waiting until Wednesday to see if she's approved by the complex and then she'll pay me back for part of the June rent. I'm going to need it and my deposit from this place to make it wherever I have to go depending on the outcome of these next two doctors visits.  All in all today was a financially draining day, which also tends to drain me mentally. 

I am very very tired of being in this forced limbo that is costing me every second I stay in it. I just wish I could have gone back to see the neurologist sooner - that extra week of waiting cost me all of my vacation time because work has to pay it out when I'm on leave like this - a leave I don't want to even be on. It is very frustrating not knowing which way I'll be able to go but knowing all the different paths that I could be forced to wander down. *sigh* 

I guess I'm done for now - no point in repeating to myself the same situations that could or could not happen - I've already memorized them. I just want to know, you know?