The House of the Lord

I was SO excited to go to the temple today! This morning started out with the wonderfully inspiring words of the beloved Prophet and several other general authorities in the Worldwide Leadership Training Meeting concerning the new manuals. They really instilled in me a desire to read and know my manual so that I may better counsel with the sisters in my presidency and with the sisters in the branch. I cannot wait to get our new ones tomorrow!
After the broadcast, which, thankfully, they were showing at seven a.m. at the 13th street building, I went to Village Inn and got some tasty breakfast, then went to the Stake Center to meet up with Nate. Ended up watching the first hour of the broadcast again with Nate and then we left to pick up Tim, his brother, and made our way down to the temple. The drive down was great! Nate and Tim are the perfect people to go on a road trip with- hilarious! We were afraid we were going to be late for our sessions, but made it just on time!! It was a very full session too!
The endowment itself was, of course and as always, beautiful and very reverencing. I am still in awe of the wonderful simplicity of it all that conveys such deep and glorious truths. I was able to assist in cleaning the temple today! So exciting to be able to assist the work in new ways! My mine was still caught up in the particular question that I have had since my last visit to the temple and I have not still come to a full knowledge of the answer, but nevertheless I shall endure and persevere to discover the truth so that I may grow from it.
After our delightful session we ate dinner at Abuelo's - muy sabrosa! Nate and Tim are such gentlemen, didn't let me pay or open my own door! On the way home we made some awesome plans for next Saturday which I am just fully stoked about! Friday is the YSA Conference in Lawrence with Elder Scott!!! and after that Tim & I will drive straight down to OKC so he can work in the Temple on Saturday and so that I can attend all the sessions I desire, including a session in Spanish! So very excited to do that!! I am so grateful for Tim's willingness to allow me to go with him!
I am very happy to have been in the House of the Lord today and am deeply grateful for the proximity to which I live to His House. My soul is at peace, my mind is at ease, and my heart is full near to bursting.

Troubles Lately..

So, I have a lot of stress/anxiety and anger issues. My fuse has apparently shortened tremendously and I am, of late, unable to keep my bitter tongue under wraps. Every word that comes dripping off of it is as bitter and harsh as a cold winter wind. The amount of negativity that flows forward in my tone is overwhelmingly disturbing because it is all people, my family, say they hear out of me. Living at home is not easy after you've been out for almost 3 years... even living across town. I also am having issues being around large groups of people because I start to feel very conscious of everything and rather anxious. Not always, like I'm fine sitting in our FHE group, or in church classes, but not in Sacrament or while in Institute. It's super weird though because I especially have a hard time around my family. They seem to entice my brain into yelling at itself with all these negative thoughts and insecurities. It should be like that around family. I have lost my place to feel unconditional love from anyone but the Savior, luckily that carries with me in my heart as long as I have faith in it. I wish I would get better.

Farewell...

So, Elder Cooper Riley is leaving today, back to Kansas City for a day with the Mission President and then home to Utah. He will be greatly missed. I am glad he found that feeling of home here and I hope that his goal of coming back in April is realized, it would be amazing to see him again and actually get to hug him instead of by proxy. I admit I will dwell on him for a bit; he was unique. But time heals all "wounds" and I am sure that it will be just fine having him as a Facebook friend and getting to text him occasionally. I know that I am not the only girl who fell for him while he was here, but I hope I'm not the last holding on. It shouldn't be too hard to let go, I hope. I will always be grateful for the eggs :)

And so begins the waiting game...

I am so not patient enough for this game. I am waiting for a phone call from First Student so I can start my behind the wheel training and be one step closer to having a job! Ugh... just hate waiting so much. Super glad tonight is institute, hope i can stay positive because I feel myself slipping.

2am

So, It's 2am... and I'm not asleep. Seeing as I have no job that demands my presence early in the morning, I'm kind of just being a gigantic bum. Today, later after I sleep, I am dedicated to doing laundry. Since it is Wednesday and I have nothing going on in the evenings on Wednesday, I can spend the entire day at my house. Will I? Maybe. Not entirely sure, I do need to run those cruets by Sarah for the reception and I do want to get my hair trimmed. I really should go for a walk, or go swimming, or do something semi-productive. Although, laundry really does need to be done. I am out of EVERYTHING it seems. Well, I am going to bed now...

Oh yeah, life update. Unemployed at the moment. Got quit/fired from T-Mobile on August 2nd and just this past week Drew told me he couldn't afford to pay me anymore, so yeah, things are going great. Living off of my 401k, which is not going to last much longer. Really REALLY not looking forward to finding a job, my most promising prospects are the post office doing data entry and Student First as a bus driver for USD 259. So yeah... I am out of work, working on Sarah and Joe's wedding, and just trying to stay positive, which I'm finding really hard. I fear it is because I am not doing those things in my life which I should be.

I Love to See the Temple

I'll go inside TODAY!! I'll covenant with my Father, I'll promise to Obey! For the Temple is a holy place where we are sealed together. As a child of God, I know this truth, a Family is Forever!!

I am so excited/anxious to go to the temple today. It seems like forever ago that I got my recommend, over 6 weeks ago! and now the day is finally here!! I am so very grateful for Joe and Sarah for driving me down so I don't have to drive alone and can talk with them about it. I feel so inadequate sometimes in expressing how I truly feel about all this, which is just UBER UBER Excited with a huge dose of humility and awe.

Well, I'll let you know how it goes!